what?

haven't blogged much lately cos:

1. dun want to look like i'm emo-ing my life away.

2. i'm stuck in the office.

3. nothing really substantial to write about.

well then...

found this pic..from somewhere..
thought it looked nice. why can't i take pictures like that... !!

buuttteerrffllyy.

okay, so there was this one day..i think it was monday...i was dying in the office..so i spent 2 whole hours reading baby blues comics. waste time. but who cares. i'm being entertained.

hopefully it's big enough to read.

but what it says is pretty real. it's like how parents are so paranoid over little stuff. i mean the kid's barely old enough to even know wad rock-climbing is..much less climb a mountain.

reminds me of my own parents. oh wells. nvm.

i had a majorly weird..WEIRD dream last night.

and i certainly think u won't want to know about it. lol.

a big thank you to my alarm that rang to get me out of dreamland.

):
okay so it's officially been 2 whole weeks since i've gone to church. which is terribly terrible.

1st week was cos of my aunty.

yesterday was cos of me. felt sick the whole day. even at cell on sat. dunno why.

i can't afford to fall sick. it's the HOLs. plus i've got stuff to complete.

and lemme tell u, working( or should i say..child-labouring) under ur mother is no fun at all.

seriously. RAAAHs.

i'm like dying a slow death here in the stinking office.

so i'm at the church building from monday to friday. but not there on a sunday. which is totally pointless. hais. why.

why did she move out.

why did she turn into a business freak.

she cares so much more for those ppl than us at home.

i've no idea who she is anymore.

and i don't understand why she says i'm not independent.

and i don't see why i should be labelled as a useless 17-yr-old who can't do anything properly.

if i do like 10 things..and one of them is like not done properly...the rest totally get ignored. so it's like all my efforts wasted la. might as well screw the other 9 things and get the same amount of lecturing.

and it's like nothing u say ever gets heard. u can tell her the same thing 5 times..and she'll come up to u and scold u for not telling her at all. THAT'S LIKE NOT EVEN MY FAULT.

so many times. the same thing keeps repeating itself. and i feel as if i'm the only one who's tyring to solve the problem. but it won't work unless both parties try. and that's like never gonna happen.

so much for giving me an over-protected life.

i don't think it helped me much.

never given room to make my own decisions.

never given room to do things alone.

how was i supposed to learn?

i guess it is true.

a caged animal. once let loose...will have a hard time.

and even now..my decisions are being overrided in the name of authority.

it's no wonder i'm turning into a suaku(is that how u spell it??)

hais.

i wish everything was how it was last time.

when there was no lack - emotionally, financially etc.





i want to go home. my real one.

waiting patiently

i wait for the truth of Your Word to pass, Lord.

i wait for help to return.

i wait for the promises to become a reality.

i wait for the wisdom to take shape and to make sense in my life. (:

i wait for the Lord, my soul waits, and in His Word i hope.

Psalm 130:5 nsrv

great.
i seriously cannot believe that mummy made me miss cell to go indian wedding outfit shopping.
that's really nuts. but that's what happened.
left home at 12.30.. came home only at 9. imagine being stuck in that silly place in singapore for 8.5 hours!!!!
and shopping is such a killer.
shop owners annoy me.
either they follow u in the shop picking totally horrible stuff...or they sit around and dun care about u. right. raahs.
so i think i went into like a million shops...
and it's so hard to shop when u alr know in ur mind that there's really nothing that will be of interest to u. i dunno bout u...but oh wells.
after a super long time. managed to buy ONE dunno-wad-u-call-it. cost was reasonable for a designer piece. (: means no one else would ever have the same thing as me.
haha.
so i thought...after that the shoppinh would be over..BUT NO.
craps. saw so many nice ones...but the price was like WOAH. $400...who wan to buy man!
walk walk somemore...walked into some ulu shop...but they had a super nice piece!!!... ah. i wan. but i concluded that tailoring a brand new one would be cheaper. so i did. but daddy was nice and said when we come again to collect my tailored stuff..and i still want it, i could have it. .
but no point also. where to wad occasion??? ee.
haha. then ma fan still must buy accessories. that's like the biggest headache ever. cos i dun like wearing those stuff.
being an indian is a tough job u know. so much for rich culture. nonsense!
and little india is a SCARYY place, to me.

then today...had to miss church...cos my poor aunt got into an accident...
cab drivers. RAAHS.
so stayed with her and my granny. poor traumatized people.
anyway,
in the evening was forced to go down to that weird part of singapore AGAIN.
AND MY GOODNESS...NEVER EVER GO THERE ON A SUNDAY!
actually nv go there at all if possible. LOL
seriously. mass exodus of MEN. it's really nightmarish.
my sis was holding on to me. i held on to mummy. and she held on to daddy.
funny scene. but safe.
irritating people exist leh. they walk on the road like it's their house liddat...cross roads like cows. siao. COWS. drive car also problem. walk right in front of it. wah cannot tahan...from the back seat i pressed the car horn till super loud..HAHA they got scared and siamed. my parents thought i was mad.
i am officially extra extra terrified of indian ppl other than my friends and family (who are considerably few in numbers.) omgosh they stare like wan to kill u liddat. and staring games aren't much fun.
OH. i have thought about, prayed, and consulted many other people..i have come a final decision.
i shall stay in the silly sch called ____ but switch stream..and just slog away till A's. saves me the trouble of choosing wad to do in poly.
hais.
see the silly sch again.
see the silly sch again.
see the silly sch again!!!
tiring weekend.
looking forward to a better week.
will miss those travelling..mandy take care!! i wan kimono too! HAHA.

randomness

i have so many things running through my head.

btw..cutting paper is therapeutic.

came across this. and it's super niice.

christmas is coming! (:

haha. gna be a budgeted one. LOL

~
hais.
what to do?
what to do?
what to do?
what to say?
what to say?
what to say?
LOL.
yes?
no?
no?
yes?
WHAT???
RAAHS.
haha.
no. i'm not psycho.
although yes i'm gna take psychology...i think. haha. but so?
still!!!
where's my answer!!!
somebody tell me.
i prayed. long long time ago till now.
hais. yet......i'm still like this!
why can't _____________________________???
hais.
ok nvm. apologies if u have no clue to what i'm saying over here. haha.
u'll know in time to come. once i've convinced myself.
tired of it all.
aren't u?

~
There was a box.
Inside was something gooey.
It had a weird smell.
Funky.
It started to ooze out of the box.
I say it could reach all the way to the great walls of china.
The lid burst open.
And we all jumped in panic.
Ohh the frenzy!
The goo started to crawl out of the box.
It’s claws were shimmering in the sunlight.
It caught on to someone’s foot.
oh no! poor friend.
It began to dissolve the shoe.
Oh no!
not the shoe!
it was a NIKE!
It slowly disintegrated the foot.
Eew u could see the tick sliding down the throat into the pit of the goo’s stomach.
Eventually the whole fellow was swallowed.
Goodbye my lover, goodbye my friend… then there were four. ( eh why the number so suay ah?)
the goo eyed all of us.
We eyed him back.
The staring game continued.
Ni kan wo, wo kan ni. Hao sian oh!
The four of them circled it (cowboy music playing in the background).
They stood around him with their legs wide open and their hands in the pockets as though they were reaching for guns.
They rolled up their sleeves.
KUNGFU FIGHTING! (music plays)
they made their first step forward.
And then they stepped back again.
And then tarzan came and swept the goo off it’s feet bringing it to eternal damnation.
Jane came on an elephant and rescued them all.
And then they lived happily ever after!
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haha. lamenest at it's best. the things best friends do. LOL
I LOVE HER! (:

stay happy mandy dear! (:
i've got u and u've got me. we'll survive. HEH.

SOccER
haha ohman! saturday was like the FIRST time i sat through a whole soccer match with my eyes glued onto the tv screen. seriously. i mean i watch matches but i was never so into them. and satuday's match didn't involve chelsea..that's like the best part. so i was so engrossed in a game where 2 teams i don't support are playing. HAHA. and for some reason i was on Man U's side.

it was like super funny. when rooney scored..i started clapping and running round the hall. like a weirdo. and i forced myself to sit down once i realised my neighbours walked past.HAHA. then when ronaldo scored i jumped off the couch and screamed..together with my neighbour next door. WHAHHAA. right. please do not alter the impression u have of me after reading this crap. i am not usually like this. seriously.

but i have to admit it was an absolutely fantastic match for the fact that i was reluctant to even pour myself a glass of drink in between the game. (:

wOoH! o__O

END OF PW!!!!!!!

haha that's the most awesomest thing ever!!!

u know they asked a qn to THE PIG today : would u say that u and you group have produced quality work?

and THE PIG answers: YES. because we have good information gathering.

RAAAAAAAHS. WRONG ANSWER HELLO??!

she's supposed to say we put so much effort into planning and visualising how the stupid exhibition is supposed to turn out and that we made great pains to create the 3D models of each individual activity that all who see may understand what our ideas are..she's so full of crap..

the teacher like spent 10 mins asking her like 3 diff qns cos she doesn't answer to the point..she went one whole round and nv answered. loser. boooo.

haha ohwells. too bad. i'm worried my answers were too short. cos she only asked me why i chose this groundbreaker over the others..and what i have personally learnt from the groundbreaker. surprisingly the answer for the first qn was like stuck in my head the whole day today..for some weird reason i had the strangest feeling i was gna get asked that qn. which is like totally cool. but then again..my answer too short..haha. but i guess the examiners were satisfied with a short direct one. LOL.

so then..so much about 3D model activities for exhibition. i'll give u now another run through the exhibition..OP style. LOL.

promoters will wear this shirt and walk around the exhibiton. how cool is that??? that's ariff bongso on the shirt btw..and not lim kim san.!!

this is the preview room before entering the exhibition : video galaxy. got 3 screens - left, right and one on the floor.. then ppl go inside can see floorplan and brief videos la..so once they go inside they not so blurr..haha. see the light bulbs??!! cool right!! haha

this is the stage for the talks that the fellow's gna give..haha..the black guy's the one. then there's a podium...a light bulb again...a projector and screen..haha and frilly stuff to make it look like a stage.

this is like the crappiest billboard i've seen. guess who did it? THE PIG. and she complained to do this. raahs. ok nvm. not important.

this is like THE highlight of the whole exhibition..we took ages to do this up. simulation ride..shaped like a cell. so u go inside climb the ladder...then sit on the red chairs..buckle up then then lid will close..and the movie will play and the whole thing will shake. LOL. that's basically it. haha. i went all the way to bras basar with erhem..tahan the whole way...and spent 10 bucks on the styrafoam ball...and btw..it's the same ball that was in the airport picture previously..haha only not yet completed then la.. (:

my personal favourite. i stayed up doing this all of last night...my 3D HEART playground..it's a mze thing la...so the kids will go thru with clues..do some activity solve puzzle and watch video then find their way out. IT LOOKS LIKE A HEART RIGHT??? haha.. i love this.

tt's all. (: