Free Hugs at Cedar

ohman. came across cedar videos while browsing some stuff on youtube. haha. this caught my attention. if i'm not wrong this took place when i was sec 3?? loonng ago.haha. but quite cute eh. the life in an all girls sch compared to now. raah. we had more liberty to do stuff. lol. free hugs. who'd have thought of that. i miss being in sec sch.

i've never seen anything/anyone as _______ as this before.
well there's always a first for everything they say.
but this is not how i pictured it.
eeew.
God help them see that this is not how u planned it to be.
in truth.

moving on

all things happen for a reason. it's whether we take it in the right spirit.
and know what? i didn't. for the past 2 weeks..what have i been doing? sulking away.
but did it help? NO. it made things worse. so i learnt my lesson. u end up doing silly things when u take your eyes of Jesus. u lose focus. and u lose common sense. lol. weird but true to a certain extent.
u gradually become no different from everyone out there. and before u know it, u're behaving just like one of them as well. something struck me when i caught myself in that situation. SHERNI WHAT ARE U DOING?! lol.
something william spoke to me today made me think. education was meant for us to glorify God. but what more commonly seen today, is that education makes us lose focus and instead draws us away from Him in such a subtle manner. isn't it scary when u think about it?
fight the current.
the message at service today wasn't something new. but the testimonies he shared were what caught my attention. somehow when a well-known speaker comes and shares..for some reason i don't feel impacted cos i'm like... his relationship with Christ is 'up there' and we're like 'down here'..and so u can't really compare the level of faith. but when someone 'new' comes along and shares.... u can place urself in the person shoes and totally feel the way he feels. and that's when i begin to realise that hey, it's possible to have faith like that. okay, so maybe i've got some warped metality.but whatever. haha.
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The Way You Are
by The Afters

until You came, i was just the same as everybody else
who ever saw the light and turn away
You love me now, You loved me then
now and again, You show me how it would've been
if i'd gone the other way

and after all this time
i've come to find my soul's fragility
but You've rectified my frenzy
by Your strength

it's like the sun's swallowed up by the earth
like atomic bombs in reverse
as if a glass could contain the same
that's the way You are in me
that's the way You are

now here i stand, looking back to how things used to be
but i will never be alone again
coz You're with me
and now i see
what it means to be part of a mystery

and after all this time
i've come to find my soul's fragility
but You've rectified my frenzy
by Your strength

it's like the sun's swallowed up by the earth
like atomic bombs in reverse
as if a glass could contain the same
that's the way You are in me
that's the way You are
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after listening to this song for sooo long...i've finally realised that it's actually really nice. lol.
a song well summed up. (:
okay so i'm like in a super super good mood today. i'll try and stay like this for the rest of this week as well. MUST. don't want to go back to sulky-mode again. booooooo. haha.
thanks to everyone who bothered to try and cheer me up this past week. appreciate it. (:
love u all. (:
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with y.ou next to me the unimaginable becomes a norm. ^-^

sometimes i wonder why we bother to think so much instead of just accepting things the way they come. or is it just me?

sheesh

_________ thinks that i :
1. am irresponsible. (all cos i tot i lost a key but all along it was safely kept in my wallet where it would never get lost.)
2.have some memory loss problem. (like who's so free to actually remember unimportant stuff that happened a month ago?!)
3. i can't follow instructions (know wad? i'm not bothered. cos __'s methods of doing things are unreasonable)

now then, can anyone reason why i get mad so often?

came home today and was totally shooting everyone down. dunno why. but ya. got fed up with myself as well. went to play some guitar and worship and all. felt better. i so totally miss my violin. it's not fun to play it anymore without learning anything new. the old stuff are nice but not nice enough to sustain my interest for 6 mins. i want to go for lessons again...... )):

daddy wants me to go with him for the Singapore Bay - Shears Bridge run on sunday. my gosh. run 12 km? haven't trained in so many years. ee. i think even if i do go i'll stroll my way throughout. haha. bring my camera. take my sis along. walk around. pose and take rubbish shots. our usual pastime. ahaha. hopefully can. if not i won't go.seriously. unless someone wants to go with me?? don't think it'll happen. but then the time could be spent mugging. so i'm like undecided. and i'll miss church if i go as well. HAIS. messiness.

can't be bothered to think already. braindead.
and i've finally officially concluded that army turns people into morons. one good example. daddy. the brain processing rate is like pentium 1 while normal people are pentium 4 for example. haiyo. see the vast gap. it's really amazing. heh

creeps.

days flying so so super fast. only another month or so to mug. no time no time.
know wad...there's really nothing to blog about.
and then there are ppl who just don't understand that i need more alone-time. so please stop bugging me. not that i don't want to spend time with u guys. miss y'all alot if you realise. but this is just one of the things i've put on the shelf for me to touch on later. trust me, i don't like sitting at my table cramming illogical things into my head. it wasn't an option.

and then there's my dad who wants to go overseas for like 6 months, 1yr..or maybe even 2 years. i still can't decide if it's a good thing or not. cos it means less nagging for the whole family. but then there won't be anyone to drive me to school, anyone to go good shopping with, and no one to irritate me. i've survived this once like 3-4 years ago. i thought it was alright. but right now..it's best for him to stay put and leave like in 2 years time. by then my sis wil be in sec one. i'll hopefully be in a U and well ya. more stable family situation in a sense. why do i bother to think so much anyway. he'll still make a solo decision. raahs.

yays!

haha. yes. no more nonsense to worry about.


ndc performace apparently went well. haha.


but it was a good experience tho. like i've never actually danced traditional dance before. what more a fusion one. haha. i had fun actually. but the costume made me feel like santa clause jr.





and after ndc we had econs test. 2hrs. how anti-climax can this sch get? haha but then i din have time to study for the test so like i was practically crapping my way through. right.
after sch..had some silly farewell thing for the j2s. went to yishun park. of all places. have a farewell at yishun park! eeyer. seriously. full or ____ people. irks me. anyways, us four girls had fun on our own. doing crazy stuff and all. so we ended at around 530. we headed to northpoint. another weird place in singapore. and we bought the same adidas deodrant. this whole having-same-stuff-thing started off with the same earrings divya bought. they're so nice!! haha. so not being able to stand np, we went to tm. stereotyped place. haha. took neoprints. my 2nd time. how loser can i get. haha. but they turned out pretty. pics will be up soon. (:
i din realise how much we had in common until dinner. haha. it's scary if u think about it. oh. we bought another pair of earrings on our way back home as well. ((:

ytd was one boring day. slept in..for once. (: had a 10 hour sleep. felt so good! haha. studied till 3. then napped till 6. i'm so pig. haha. watched ndp on tv. not fantastic la. previous years were better. supposed to go watch live fireworks but then alot of places were cordoned off so can't really do much. after watching..came the best part of the day. dinner. happily eating then had major stomach ache. that was it. it initialted a series of toilet trips. it was the start of stomach flu. raahs. couldn't sleep the whole night. so i'm still kind of groggy up till now. fever. and terrible stomach ache. all thanks to chilli. angryness.

so far so good?

THERE'S NO MORE RNR TO WORRY ABOUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
yays!! hahas.
seriously that's a load off all of us.
but there're new problems. silly fusion dance.
totally malu-ed myself by acting pro and totally ______________. haha.
so malu-ating!!
haha.
so it's been dance dance all the way since wed.... i'm aching. got 2 big bruises thanks to hall floor friction. rrahs. terribly hurts when u execute floor moves. but one thing good... it keeps me toned. it's good right?? right?
but pain. feel old.climb up and down stairs and i want to collapse. thank goodness there're escalators everywhere else. (:
pigged out today.
supposed to eat sakae buffet...but had rehearsal. so had to forgo it. )): i was so looking forward to it. but no. went to eat kfc. budget. seriously. haha. i ate the shrooms meal...plus another burger from BK. haha. pig. but yet i wasn't full. dunno why. all the dancing helps in digestion??
i'm not gaining weight either. i'm losing more actually. no matter what i do. tmr's another busy day.
9-12 there's dance practice.
2-4 there's PE elective -aeroboxing. gna die of muscle aches.
where's my sports tape????!! in case my toe sprains all of a sudden and my ankle gives way like the last time... i'm falling apart.