fishing tmr..can't wait! =)) ha. but..still got lots of hw and theory stuff to do and of course drill on scales and songs..argh..it's a tough job..

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aiya i dunno why i feel so confused now leh..no matter how i study for Chem that sickening thing still won't ever get into me thick fat skull!! argh. i dun want to go on like dis forever..chem has gotta stick in no mater what! i must pass it..no Ds..Es.. and Fs for me for MYE, prelims and Os man! see lah..all i can talk about is school..no fun one..so stereotyped. must be more..how to say..extraordinary??individualistic?? ah..then today lit test i really dunno wad i was writing. seem like i was narrating throughout and just slotted in links like ss like that..so lousy lah..now just sit and wait for my results. i studied but still..aiya..it's over liao.

then still got so much hw..then el tchr lesson always ever so boring..got essay to write..keep postponing it. must get down to it but so so sian. dun wan to even open the book ah. but somehow long pages fo letters always seem to help me release myself..letter to who issit?? give it a thought. who else. see..water molecules stick togetherr and like to be in clumps always to the point they even bounce on top of each other when really got no more space..maybe i should become like one...and stick and clump onto God. hah..interesting way of putting it..but anyway..

ate pizza just now..finally was allowed to buy my fav..pepperoni lovers'.ha. so DELICIOUS man!! ha sry. hungry again. wait..i go get food...

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ok. i'm back with more food- chocs rather.. ha. my schedule like getting more and more packed..dunno why..no reason to be anyway. can hardly fit people into my schedule..then cannot meet them then so irritating cos u feel so loaded. then cannot even have study sessions cos so busy..*sighs* must try..

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SUN-DAY!! + cell

haha..yesterday had cell at adorie's place. so funny. din know sab had that quirky habit..haha. and yah, adorie..your fishies are so cute and translucent. ok that sounds dumb. haha. topic : overcoming the world..well not in the literal sense of course.
1. don't start loving it.(meaning put God 1st at all times! yea.)
2. 1 John 2: 15-17
3. our own psychological defense may not be sufficient..let God have His divine intervention..
4. renew our minds: purge the rubbish
5. PRAY - take the deliberate effort

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and today..well it's SUN-day..a day of sun.well ya..haha. so fun. play until got mucle pull on my feet..and calves..ha.but it was good fun. realy racing..my M&Ms kept bouncing on and off the spoon..ha..and dodgeball..well, yah. obviously i got dodged by..well nevermind. and the last game..ha. was the most tiring..but fun. ha. kept becoming a solitary prisoner..so useless. but i got close the flag ok, and good achievement on the count that i was the only girl in the attacking crew of the BLUE team. ha. but amelia and vivien had me cornered all the time. well, too bad. and guess what..we came in 2nd overall..good right?! yeah!

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V DAY!

whoa..anoher year flies by faster than u yourself realise it. another valentine's day. another day where i forget to bring the v-day gifts and guiltily accept what others have for me. (GREAT apologies for those whom i owe V-day gifts..esp u hanwei..sorry ah, don't kill me..) ha. lazily stuck at home preparing for tmr's shakespeare's-sillily written-12th night book-which we have to read- test. muggin..well..so not exactlyly but u know what i mean. then my cute lil' brenda smsed and asked why i was at home and not out on a date...so cheeky man! hah. no offense..but heellloo?? do i look like the type who could be in the least interested 'bout these stuff?? anyways..having replied her that singlehood is a gift..i resumed the slow-paced stugying and homwork routine. sian. school drains you and bores you and makes you all..well..just fill in the blank la.

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boo..

i knew i so wasn't going to make it. i still know that i won't be able to make it..but i really don't bother. i didn't even try.

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sian..

argh. like tmr got chem and emath- locus and kinematics tesT!!! like i'm ok with math but chem! aahh..just seriously cannot make it.wish i could drop it, but then again i dun want to.

sunday's msg was like great. eye-opener in a certain sense. dun really know how to explain, yah.

see lah. see * again. then always got no response one. upsetting. nvm. there must be reasons. none so far known though. hah. sian. go back to sch. no more long hols till march. i want more hols. oh yah. so coincidental. know a friend who knows someone who knows someone i know. nice. sounds lame but wah..such a small world..well, u know what i mean. just stoning at home. trying not to waste too much time doing unproductive stuff. need to study, Os coming. man, i dunt like tt phrase.

just very sad. You are the only one who knows, lead me on. only you understand. help me, really.

ok, maybe i'm exaggerating, but it's true to a certain degree. ha..i'm confused. nvm.


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like wow..get back ss results for class test and teacher has to announce to the class that i don't spell my name with a capital "D"! ah..so malu lah. hey, no one teaches me how to write my name here ok?!

hais..

aahh...it's like the whole of this new yr weekend thing isn't really working out for me. been down with this silly stomach problem and a fever to accompany that. been puking disgusting bitter yellow liquid. hey, i haven't been eating rubbish and there's totally no reason why i should fall sick!! argh. my parents say, spiritual warfare. i agree to a certain extent. this battle has caused me 2 days lack of new year junk and a day spent at han wei's. so sad..mm.. :(( no fair.

i certainly don't deserve this. but anyway, ha. i haven't touched my hw..only done silly ss and a bit of a maths. been spending lots of time with my cousin who came to stay over for the whole hols. not exactly very wonderful for the fact that there's less privacy and she's always 'whatcha doing?' and i go..argh. nvm. but she'll be coming more often and to church too. anyways..back to scholl tmr. dun really like the feeling of it. but do i look like i have much of a choice??