so where do i start?

been a really interesting week.

had a super no-hype no-oomph sports day thing at sch last week. it's was sports day. and i was bored. now that's weird.

haha then thrus had soccer finals!! whoo! but mj lost to rj: 1. referee is such a moron. 2. players din play as well as they used to. so there. met a long lost friend...ok so she's not so long lost..but it's been years since i've met her. imagine rival sch kids cheering for e game tgt. so funny! ppl kept staring at us but it's not as if i care. and she din let me take pictures cos she had a pimple on her nose! hmph.

after match rushed to church. good service! (:

fri sch hol. but had econs tutorial. haha but i ponned it. had fun sleeping in. heh!

rushed for night mtg at church on fri too.

SATURATION point.

lol.

crystals form. filter. wash with cold distilled water/alcohol. leave to evaporate. wah la! pure dry samples of crystals!

whaha ok sorry. chem starts to flood back.oh yah... i still have my copper(II) sulphate crystal i made in sec 3 stuck on my table lamp neck thingy. it's still shiny and crystally. lol. NICE!

the fri service freaked me out. as in reaaally freaked me out. i mean i know God moves interestingly. but never thought it'd happen this way. haha good encounter though. sat too. u can really feel the presence of God resting in the place. it was as if, if my vision was just sharper i could just see so much more at that point. i mean yah..i saw a number of visions. pretty cool. but i have no clue to what they mean. most of the time it requires at least 2 weeks of waiting before i get the analysis. haha. and like a few months before it comes to pass. so yah. now's just waiting time. (:

on sat night i just had a (fill in the feeling) to put on paper my recent visions. like, to draw them out and add colour and stuff... and man, it's tough work. it was a piece of cake to get the nice sketches out and bold lines added. but the whole colour filling process was painstaking. too make sure the effects are there and add the accurate hue and stuff...waah..took me 3hrs to halfway colour(NOT using colour pencils) what i drew in 5 mins. is it really that hard or am i just bad? or am i just a crazy perfectionist? so now i've only done up like 3/4 of one. drew out 3 already though. doing this kind of stuff at 2 plus in the morning and still have the strength to wake up for 1st service that sunday was certainly wow-ing. haha. =)

after such a wonderful weekend, monday was such an unedifying day.

gp exam. then went out with the class. then went to watch Pirates of The Carribean 3 as a cohort. haha. gg to sch and hearing what ppl say kind of sickens me. hais. but the movie was AWESOME!! the effects were super cool. and oh yah... imagine having someone propose to his gf while they were both in the midst of a swordfighting scene. and getting married on some half-wrecked ship while the enemy is like all around trying to kill you.. whaha so funny! but tentacle man was GROSS!!! eew. so gross. haha.

trying hard to put on a smile and wake up early and head back to sch this week. my mind's already programmed to holiday-time. so argh. haha.



I WANT MY BON VIVANT!! not just that. one who can pay for the stuff too! haha.

mess!

ah hah!
wad a weird week.
6 tests in 4 days.
think i'm gna fail all.
haha.
craps.
feel so loserfied. study so much.
then go sit for paper. as if i din even study at all.
so genius right? >.<
spent friday night slacking.
dunno wad crap i was doing la.
then came sat!
wonderful day.
left home at 7.30am for morning run at east coast. met ppl at pp. then walked over.
ran for like half an hour i think. halfway i think i would've passed out. smart me went to run on an empty stomach. and halfway my mum called also. i sounded so breathless and she was like - ''eh dun run and die can! stop running la. walk! just walk can!!'' lol. she's so funny.
after that went to breakfast at macs. so unhealthy but who cares rite?
then had baptism. ANN! and TIM!! or rather. GRACE!! and JOHNATHAN!! haha. yay.
then had zone service at church. was good! it's been awhile since i've heard xueying preach and the message was perfect for what most of us have been going through these few weeks. so yea.
then came he ultimate spoiler like always. kenna scolded for not picking up my phone. and not returning miss calls. not my fault wad. my phone wasn't with me. and when i finally had it with me, it dint show any missed calls. hais. nvm.
so went home asap cos parents were mad cos i've been out for like 12 hours. so did work till 10. then watched match!! and finally blues won! haha. but it was quite a boring final match i'd say.
almost at the end then kenna scolded for staying up late. told me go sleep immediately. like wad la! hais. nvm. was upset. couldn't sleep.
but still managed to attend first. then wasn't allowed to attend 3rd. sad case.
came home to try mug. but kenna more scolding. so in the end spoilt my mood to do work and nth was done. went to sch this morning with only math tutorials done. thankfully i managed to finsh the rest during breaks. (:
got silly ICS elections tmr. wad's the point when there're only 3 members???? hais. hopefully i get what i deserve.
GPP done!! finally!!! i'm so proud of all of us. yay!
alrights.

bad..bad...

it's been a crazeeee week.
fell sick with stomach flu. fever shot up like up to 38.6. scary. >.<
it didn't help that i had napfa 5 items test the day before. so body was aching bad.
missed 2 days of sch! so relaxing. haha. but then went back on fri and got piled with friends' notes to copy answers from!


so fri. went to cut my hair after school. and right after that went to get lunch and guess who i saw!! ___________. so ugh. it's like so suay la. go out with ann, go eat on sun, now, go out myself also!! argh. but good thing the haircut cause me to look kind of unrecognizable with my hair falling all over my face. yay. lol.


so then got ready to leave for performance rehearsal. so proud of myself. i found my way to VCH! actually was quite easy la. after looking at maps and books, that is. this is what happens when u travel by car too often. you end up knowing only routes that only cars can take. and places for cheap parking too! haha. essential for future. heh. the first thing i'll do when i turn 21 - get my driver's licence! yes! the 2nd thing would be to own a car. ((:


okay. anyway. rehearsal. was weird. but fun in a way. i guess my teacher was stressed. tt's why he kept losing it at the slightest mistake we made. nvm. i'll forgive the old guy. he's nice. haha.


least did i expect my aunts and grandma and my little cousin to come down support me together with my parents and sis. lol. ticket price was like 15 bucks and still they wanted to come?? my gosh. haha. was the concert was like some chinese mothers' day choir thingy. so EVERYTHING was presented in excellent mandarin which left me confused and blur. lol. but the choir was power. somemore all old aunties and uncles eh. super. i think i've lost my stage fright thingy. numbed after performing so many times in front of hundreds. so it was kind of fun. i was still sweating though, but that's cos of the stupid spotlight which just had to be directly behind me. soHOT~! and it din help that i was wearing a long-sleeved shirt. hmph. so unglam la. sweating while playing violin. eeeee. hahaha. OHyah. then there was this super pro accordian player. so nice!!! like woah. like who in this era would play that rite?? i thought i was the oldest out of the 'kid' performers. but the accordian player was the same age haha. only he's in sec5.


ppl think i'm sec1!!! hais. so after the performance i went to the back of the audience to sit. and guess what, i fell asleep! and i totally forgot about the finale phototaking thing. and everyone was on stage but me. ahaha. nvm.


so after that while walking to the car. me being easily bored took this :
a BAD shot with a big flash of light from dunno where. lol.
city hall! i took one in a nicer angle. but then forgot to change the light setting. so it came out worse. ): need more practice. haha.

came home. tried to chiong hw. but no. went to sleep instead. cos......

sat morning. woke up at 5.30! stupid la. spoil my sat. left home at 6.10 to reach SRJC at 7. start of a BORING ics exco leadership camp. so waste time!! supposed to end at 5.30. but it dragged until 7.30 eh!!! could anything be worse? so reached home at like 9. late dinner.and then chiong gpp and RnR. i detest proposals. ):

sun. totally forgot it was mothers' day till my mum reminded me. i felt so bad. but she din mind. she knew i barely slept the previous nights. haha. camp actually starts at 7am on sun too. but then i told my teacher that i'll be missing half of camp cos i've got church. and her face was like so black can. all she said was, do whatever u want, just let the head know and makes sure she approves. and i was like wad? ask the head? forget it. who cares about her anyway. haha. she is one fill in the blank. argh. complained to mummy all the way to church about this. i so wanted to pon camp today. but mummy said i should just go back to show teacher i can keep my word about coming back. heh. so instead of reaching camp at 12 i reached at 4!! whaha. i skipped 2 boring workshops and one time-wasting forum. came just in time for finale-item practise. haha.
i think we broke record ah. 1hr and we choreographed a dance for a 6min-long song. it it worked out well! haha.cool rite. come to think of it. i shouldn't have even gone back the 2nd day. should've just stayed in church. i wouldn't have made a difference since they had enough people anyway. haha. but nvm. oh..but my group member...he's this NJ national debater who's like on tv so often....




ahaha..debater..u'd think smart and bold and whatever else. but him....LOL. he's so slow and clowny!! my goodness. haha. joke. to think he's from NJ. ha. but seriously. it's amazing how my grp even won the most enthusiastic group award. we're not loud. we're just siao.

ah. ohno. so late. sleep. i need it.

this post is in amendment of the previous one.
so wad i said was wrong.
i din lose the battle.
it's just that i haven't won it yet.
and it's close to the pint of giving up.
but NO!
after todays msg...i can't possibly give up.
it's year of fulfilled promises.
where God's provision shall come in abundance.
in terms of finance, dreams, healing, miracles..etc
how cool is that.
and that we're gna experience tremendous breakthroughs!
i can't wait for that. i need it like.... NOW.
and pst todd affirmed me on my walk.
level of intimacy between you and God can be determined by looking at ur prayer.
how do u talk to God? in petitions and prose? or in the same way friends would speak to one another?
David had a close r/s with God. i mean like ..duh. lol. but see how he talks to God. plain simple questions that he asks. can i go up against the philistines? and then the answer to expect is either yes, no..or just instructions. so there.

after some thought, i realised. i've always felt that speaking so casually in prayer was wrong. cos there is this need for and emphasis on reverence and respect and all. i mean those still hold. but...aiya dunno how to explain. my prayers have never been long and flowery and impressive. seriously. and that has always been my problem. but today i realised it's perfectly alright.abit slow i guess...but nvm. wad matters, is the level of faith and condition of our heart.

thank you Jesus for healing my back!! and for the breakthroughs that are coming my way! (^-^)

GOD, intervene!

i lost the battle. i LOST the battle.
hopefully it was in will.
but i'm uneased at it.
gotta let go. gotta let go.
no point being upset. no point blaming anyone.
since thursday, it's like one after another sad stuff happens.
and acclaimed emo me, isn't really exceptional in handling such circumstances.
and then comes GOD. all He needs to do is stand next to you and u feel all better instantly.
My refuge. my comforter.
there's hope in knowing i can always run to Him no matter what comes my way. and that He'll always be ready to receive me.
coz He cares!
and just like how we care so much for people...not evryone responds to our love positively.
it hurts bad when u wna help someone but they refuse to be helped.
and it breaks ur heart coz u know what the end-result will be like...if u just let go of them.
so i'm pressing on.
don't care if ppl think otherwise.
cos there are times when leaders get so tired of trying they give up, leave it to God...and then God sends another team of ppl.
i'm just shocked at the level of indifference that is shown.
i mean, how can u not care?
don't u realise something's amiss??

Lord, change his heart. Show him You're real. Show him You love him.
it's been a month. we miss him.
~~

i have found out what the key i got in a vision in Feb meant - the key to overcome.
it's as if this morning's msg was meant for me or smthing. lol. exactly wad i've been looking for.
so yea. gta use the key. this whole thing falls in line with me being a Debra too.
judge.one in control.overcoming!
interesting how things work out eh.

alrights. back to sch tmr! impact lives! (:

aahs. today was one draining day.

1. rain!
2. cold
3. undone bio assignments.chiong through breaks. copy copy copy. LOL.
4. din bring GP worksheet.
5. shoulder still aching after twisting/dislocating it on Monday.
6. flunk math test.
7. dunno how to fill in summary map for bio. kenna scolded.
8. transfer cca.
9. R n R leaders' workshop session 1.
10. proposals and presentations. head.
11. unstable PI conditions. MIA teacher.
12. undone overdue homework.

so cool rite. jc life is so fun man!

sun, pw teacher called requesting amendments to be made to draft. stayed up till 1 plus researching. mon, could only see her at 8+ at night. so stayed in sch till then. and all she said was.... "can you go do on someone else? hand up by tonight, anytime."

WASTE MY TIME ONLY!! reached home at10 plus. did work till 2. submitted. tuesday night 11pm marked draft returns. rushed to amend. wed...she is nowhere to be found. !!!!!!!!!! >.<

rested alot on labour day. all cos of my parents ah. printer spoilt. ask me fix for them. like i'm some techie who knows this kind of stuff. then ask me go out with them to shop and eat. say i needed a break.so all in all wasted 6 hours doing unproductive stuff. came home late. rushed and finished at 1 plus again. thank God for daddy who sends me to sch.

house comm elections today no bad haha. except for ###. so cannot make it la. go up there, instead of rallying, go do dunno what crap. almost made us puke. triton full of hot girls. that's why i wna be in comm. like who in the correct state of being would say that?!!!!!! raahs. failing everything. HOW??? hais.

just completed writing out bio summary maps and stuck em on my wall. only 1/2 a topic and already like 5 papers. imagine 2 years worth of work. LOL!

ahs. this shoulder keeps cracking everytime i rotate it. scary. all i did was stretch for my bag and the shoulder went out, backwards then clicked back later. i hope it's nothing serious. i'm so accident -prone!! eeeeew.

i'm nodding off already. TIRED! panda! ):