SURRENDERED.

what can i say?

what can i do?

but to offer my life o God

completely to You.

distractions be gone.

worry be gone.

unrest be gone.

Jesus

i'm leaning over.

a father would do this for his son.

what more would God our Father do for us?

and what are we doing for Him?

(:

(4.5 formally-unformal shot...missing a few + one extra)

i look spas. o.O as usual.

YAY. 4point5! LOL.

CALLISTO!!....ZAI BO?!..... ZAI AH!!

haha i'm in a i-rule-cos-my-house-won-kind-of-mood right now. LOL.

***
thurs...was supposed to be a go-home-chiong-lit-and-econs-kind-of-day.
but things went wrong...for a good cause.
haha.

met amanda for dinch at swensens' to satisfy her cravings.

..swensens'.....again! ha.

in went the mega-burger for her. and out came the burps.

i dun believe i drank coke.....again.
i'm like killing myself slowly...raahs.

still managed to reach home early (:

guess wad nonsensical thing i did that night.....darn dumb la.
was running away from my dad who was holding an insect or smthing...

and i crashed into a wall...so much for running in the dark.

i totally blacked out for like 4 seconds. then came back to normal.

but my head was like throbbing. argh.

then came the swelling.

iced it...fell asleep doing that though..haha. as usual.

but the swell was still there this morning in school.

persistent headache throughout the day.

and the worst part of it all...i can't even raise my eyebrows..it's that painful. darn.
so hard to even copy stuff from the whiteboard...must lift up my entire head..and not just shift my eyes..cos i really can't..

ANYWAY...

school was still alright..haha. i survived without dying.duh.

ended sch at 12. initial plan was to go out to eat lunch and come back in time for sports day..

but guess wad...i'm in eMJay. and the school is majorly weird.

they locked ALL the gates so that no one could go out....

so that everyone is forced to attend the silly sports day.

even those who got valid medical appointments couldn't get past those guarding the gates.

wad la!?

ordered mac delivery instead....and the operator was like,"what is meridian jc?"

(o____________o)

dart me.

lol.

but Colloseum turned out to be rather fun la... (:

me.ann.huiling.

huiling.cailing.taralyn.velvarie.me

random extra guy. rahavan.me.
somehow the candid shot looked better. weird.haha

the staircase shot.

i have no idea what this is.

triton.phobos.miranda.CALLISTO.atlas.

this shot is cool. haha.

the sky was really super white when we took it..see the flats at the bottom??

down at the track.

class girls...with some missing ):

edmund.brian.

wahahaha. >.<

overall the day was good.

zzzzzzz all the way till dunno when. haha.

YAY CALLISTO WON!!!

HYEH

roaring & fleeing

monday was the boring-est day ever seriously.

dad's bday.

patched up with mummy.

told her bout pw...she was like...how in the world?!?!

slept at like 1.30am....radio entertainment kept me awake..

chiong econs.

neck cramp in the morning.

late again. as usual.

slept in canteen..again..

haha..

tueday was like lit overload-day...

got back the essay...was like...woah...sucks.

haha.

got back history..woah..cannot make it!

ended sch early..dinner-ed at carl's jr..haha nice..

went for svc.

kept drifting off the whole while la...

but still managed to catch most bits of what he was trying to say...

was good....seriously... (:

still can't find the super nice car i chanced upon.....2010 one leh....raah...

hah.

and today.

bored during pw again.

this has become my hideout. literally.

nice fan...big bench...no noise...

away from people...

haha. it's like some hollow corner of a row of classrooms...and like no one/ not many ppl know such a place exists..

had council elections..super dumb-waste-of-time-event. argh.

then..went for ics.

stupid cca.

kenna screamed at la.

the teachers thrashed us super teroh-teroh kind.

and she said...i have nth else to say to u all anymore.

she was there scoldin/talking...and i was like sitting there....like dunno wad to do la..

was already tearing..but fighting it la..later she think i'm over-sensitive...

but seriously...i felt so guilty about the way we were all treating her la..

she did so much for her...and we suck.

listening to her was like listening to my mum.

they said the exact same things..which was kind of scary.

maybe it's true that i haven't grown.

darn.

know wad..

i have no idea why i'm typing all this stuff...no point also...

i should be revising for econs test tmr..soccer....haha.

must pass!

wahahahhaha......... >.<


i'm so liking the whiteness.
tired of all the colours.
heh hyeh.

(:

i've transferred back to the old/new cell >> 4.5.
haha. 4.4 will still be there....as the legendary cell....
only with no one in it la...lol

had anth nice pre-service chat with elejayy.
i realise we can have nice chats...only we never made an effort to..haha
more to come..i hope..hees.. (:

JAMMING.
haha. it was loud. and i felt kind of claustrophobic ...altho i usually am not la...haha
weirdness.
ROJAK! was nice. i've tried better. but it's another craving satisfied. (",)


now on to econs essays....and death note 2. it's a nightmare-inducing show. but somehow it's still nice to watch. the far from ordinary plot intrigues me.

ya right....





shoot me!
as cheesy as it sounds
and as crazy as i think i am
i think i'm falling for mr.X
dang.

non-local, kind-of-familiar-guy issues

being school-less for a day..is shiok.

sleeping in till 9 and receiveing a wake-up call telling me i got a fat A for PW...is surprisingly delightful.

receiving an sms saying the ___pw group leader got a B...was the best it could possibly get.
my A was super unexpected.

and silly me refused to head down to sch to see results cos i din want to see a D next to my name. imagine a D man.. ): depressing. haha
well yea... seriously by God's grace. THANK YOU LOADS. (:

stuck at home doing nothing productive....
#did housework...
#read like 100plus pages of a novel.
#cleaned my room.
#watched HAIRSPRAY
#conferenced with 5 majorly funny and noisy people.
#ate chocolates.....

haha this is pointless.

ended up abandoning [appleliciouslove4god] for lunch at TM today.
SORRY!
but managed to make up for it with DINNER!@simpang
haha.
she saw this super cute waiter...who looked kind of jap and stuff...
i only agree with the nice hair part...LOL
well anyway...he came over to take our order but we weren't ready.so we shooed him off..
and shooed of like 8 other waiters till we were ready...
and she was sooo hoping the cute guy would come over but he never did.
then she hoped that he would be the one who delivered our rotijohn and fish&chips. but he didn't. )):
and the whole time she whined about him not coming over....and how cute he looked.
it was sooo hilarious. seriously.
as we were finishing...she had this weird revelation: the guy delivers chicken rice to people...and only to those people who sat at a certain area...
and guess wad!?
she made us order chicken rice.

the person who took our order : (looks at empty plates of rotijohn,fish&chip, and 2 empty drink cups) "chicken rice???"
us: "yup. chicken rice.roasted."
person who took our order: (sheepishly grins and walks away thinking we're total gluts)

so in the end..i had to eat the chicken rice. haha
was super full la.

man she's funnny.
and when paying the bill...i was forced to walk past the guy cos she wanted a close up.
LIKE WAAAD????

LOL.

weird people exist in this world.

okay she's so gna kill me for posting this...haha...happy reading girl!
<3


oh and after that went suprmarket to get something..and at the check-out..there was this super super thin girl. seriously. like half my size. it's scary to see anorexic people. plus she was pretty!! wasted. hais.

i'm off to do a bit of the untouched pile of homework.

tmr need to wake up darn early for some silly tamil pre-u sem at yishun jc.
eeeeeeeew.
must bring food and drinks and a good book to stay awake during the seminar.
poor us.

yay for cell tmr!!!!
can't wait.
(:


[[..when i'm weak...You make me strong
when i'm blind, You shine Your light on me
cos i'll never get by..living on my own ability.. ]] (:

song stuck in my head.

when i was just a little girl
i asked my mummy
what will i be?

will i be pretty?
will i be sweet?
here's what she said to me.

que sarah sarah
whatever will be, will be
the future's not ours to see
que sarah sarah
what will be, will be.
-------------------------- that's the original version.


it's just that now..the last stanza is drastically changed to fit today.

que (insert name) (insert name)
what u want to be, will not be
the future is yours u see
que (insert name) (insert name)
get straight As, for me.

HAHA.
i'm such a spoiler. i know.
it's not like i've achieved anything in the original version either.
what, be pretty and sweet? haha
pls lor.. long way to go...
the future according to 80% of the ppl i know...is well determined by yourself.
so great yea..haha

i'm like in this weird hyper and dying-for-chocolate kind of mood now.
cos i've got piles of hw.
can't go for movie marathon in sch later.
can't even go watch movie with roz and val later..darn.
but at least i'm at home. slacking. while they're having chinese in sch now haha.
plus NO SCHOOL TMR!
i so need to maximise tmr to go out.

YAY FOR THE WEEKEND! :D

hais,

AND I THOUGHT THIS WAS

GONNA BE A NEW YEAR ALTOGETHER.

wad was i thinking.

pls dun let it be me. pls dun let it be me. pls dun let it be me. pls dun let it be me. pls dun let it be me. -------------------

this week has been rather i-don't-know-wad-to-call-it.
is it me or am i just getting pissed off with ppl so many times this past week.
tuesday was__
wed was __ ! (this was too much seriously. 5 others felt it too.)
fri sat sun was the same person.
argh.
i think there's a problem with me.

conducted inteviews on wed.
wasn't super fun or anything.
just that it was nice to watch ppl get interrogated 1m away from you.
okay i'm mean. let's face it.

sometimes i wonder if i'm 17++ or 10.
seriously.
do this! why? cos i say so.
as if i'm bothered by wad u say. hw comes before housework..anyday.
i'm told how to comb my hair...wear a hairband...wear my shoes..tie my laces..what to wear..what not to wear...how to arrange my room...etc.
be home by six. WOW.

i blew it today la.
really got me mad.
ruling me like some power-hungry person.
so much for new year more change.
it's new year..no change..back to old school actually.
drats. it bites.

so much pessimism.
so much for gaining wisdom.
and so much for being in a position of leadership
so much for being in a place of influence.

i can't even fight myself.

and then you came along....burst my bubble and walked away like nothing happened.
and i lost another one.
questioning traditional emofication?

i don't emo.
although i have loads to be emo about.
haha.
i go for runs.
fill my sketchbooks.
blast music.
sleep.
guitar.
violin.
chocolate.
pray.
read and read.
do math.

divert the negative energy into something useful.
not always effective. but it's worth trying.

God be my solution.

oh! i got a new cam! (:

pls dun let it be me. pls dun let it be me. pls dun let it be me.pls dun let it be me. pls dun let it be me. pls dun let it be me. pls dun let it be me. pls dun let it be me. pls dun let it be me.pls dun let it be me. pls dun let it be me. pls dun let it be me. pls dun let it be me. pls dun let it be me. pls dun let it be me.pls dun let it be me. pls dun let it be me. pls dun let it be me. pls dun let it be me. pls dun let it be me. pls dun let it be me.pls dun let it be me. pls dun let it be me. pls dun let it be me. pls dun let it be me. pls dun let it be me. pls dun let it be me.pls dun let it be me. pls dun let it be me. pls dun let it be me. pls dun let it be me. pls dun let it be me. pls dun let it be me.pls dun let it be me. pls dun let it be me. pls dun let it be me. pls dun let it be me. pls dun let it be me.

raaaawwwr!

pssst,

so what's the point in wanting me to be honest?

tsk.