Monday, May 29, 2006

HAHA. just ended MT Os..haha..so nice to have it all over..paper was quite easy eh..compared to last yr's Os..hees! but then i made this stoopid careless mistake. hopefully, it doesn't really have and effect on my grade.. then the compo qn i do before already..wah..so happy.
so looks like everything went SUPER smoothly.. !!!! ((: thanks God. i knew you were behind me all the time..it's just that i didn't tapp on U. haha..

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Tuesday, May 16, 2006

i guess there's always a reason for everything to happen. but i somehow can't figure out the reason for today's occurences..so weird they were. i seriously din expect my bio results..saded. then came lit..like no improvement. last year i din do one qn and this year when i did all..i got like the same mark..well at least i am confident of my facts and all..need just to work on my applications..hees. but still bad la. i studied. but i guess i should have studied smarter..hmm..but it's hard.. ):. they keep saying our standard already quite low..but then they can't explain why we're all doing below expectations. disappointed. but i guess it's time to get superly serious..and well just study lor..sian. we're already loaded with piles of chem and a maths papers. dunno how i'll be able to finish. ah. need help. God sit next to me now. i need You more than ever. only You can possibly help this numb brain become un-numbed. )):

Sunday, May 14, 2006

i seriously seriously superly think there's something wrong with me. i can't seem to delude myself of a silly lingering thought in my head. and that's bad. cos somehow i feel that thought isn't necessary. u probably have no clue about what i'm talking about. and i seriously don't think u would want to know anyway. u would think i'm nuts. but yes it's true. those who actually know call me crazy and stoopid and all the likes. ha. but aaaaahh. i dunno what's going on with me. )):
i wouldn't say it's a bad or corrupted thought. but u know..i don't think one would say it's good either. see. i'm clueless. i dunno. why???!! can't seem to get rid of it. it's quite distracting.. hais~

wah. today had gen fundraising thing at church. abit disappointed. really i tell u. the question that keeps ringing in my head was like..why so misely? seriously lor..i mean no hard feelings but truly..must have quality products as they say..but it doesn't seem to be happening. hello? did anyone notice that..anyway..i guess it was ok la. nothing much i could about it. hais. but the good news is that we made profits..much more than expected and yea..we had fun selling right..ha.

then friday had mothers' day gathering at my place and like aiyo..so so hot and busy and irrittating man all the mothers. order us all around. then like when they call all the children to take picture together..i ALWAYS have to be part of it and then my other silly cousin who i slike what, 3 yrs older than me.. is what, excused?!! super annoying lah. u call me a kid, fine la. but then give the excuse saying that my cousin of 19 yrs is a teen. then what's 16?? kid? makes no sense lor..totally felt like punching her!!!!and all the silly aunties have to support her! wah!!!!~
just because i don't dress like her and talk like her and act like her doesn't make me unfit for my age lor. )):!!! she wants to go dress like some 20yr old person and look mature and act mature and be all secular (and 'worldly' in a sense) ..well go ahead! who cares. i know i certainly don't. people are not all the same! why can't they get it in their heads that i'm sixteen and not 10 for goodness sake! face it. i don't fancy my extended family. 1. they treat me like a mini kid. 2. one aunt probably hates me. treats me like a servant. ignores me. changes any subject that involves me. i had enough already. u dun need to show it so obviously dat u don't like me!! hello!!!

and at the end of the day like after all was over and all had gone back. my parents were like - wasn't that a wonderful gathering!!- like NO it wasn't. except for my 2 yr old niece and 3yr old cousin. they were fun to have around. no one careD!!!! just because i dun talk much to the family doesn't mean i'm stoopid or a kid or anything like dat!! enough was enough! worst still was when my mum had to scold me saying why i was on the comp while the rest were helping out in the kitchen. like if she had noticed.. my uncle was on it too!! longer than me even. i was only on it for LESS than five mins! furthermore talking to someone overseas who i had hardly found online!! it was a rare oppurtunity! but no. she HAD to make it a BIG deal in front of the rest. great la. i so hate family gatherings..(shh..dun tell anyone)

well..certainly NOT looking forward to another 2+ weeks of school. except for the getting back of results part. ha. wonder how i'm gg to do. ('',)

Wednesday, May 10, 2006

i think i'm totally going crazeeeee!!! like i know school hols are something u should be happie about but..no. i'm definitely not happy. argh..nothing to do. nothing to study and crack your head for. no exams to keep you mugging. ah. i'm crazee. no wait. i'm not. i'm totally sane. yup. i'm sane. but it's boring !!! hello? if there was school i wouldn't be doing so much hsework.i wouldn't be getting nagged at.i definitely would not be staring at an empty ceiling. and it's only day 2. i've another 2 days to go. cheer me on. ): and wah! why do 3 weeks seem like 3 years when it's only been 5 days!!! why do i feel this way?? i can't be.. must resist emotional pressures. must resist............almost there. but still not there.haiz.i can't go on like dis. it's not good..not good for health i think..haha. well anyways..something to look forward to would be mother's day celebrations!! all the men in the family are doing all and i mean ALL the cooking. all the best to them and poor us who have to eat their a-little-horrid menu - raw celery..mixed vegies. chilli prawn..fruit salad! oh man. my stomach's not ready for this..`growls