revelations...not.

saturday left me too tired to wake up for 1st service today.

):

i seriously honestly didn't feel like going for cell on sat..cos i was so tired from sch mtgs and all...plus it was so late alr...

but i realised it's those days u really don't want to go..that God moves most.

and it was a good thing i went. although i was truly and noticeably half dead.

to be more specific..terribly dehydrated la.

church today.

normal i guess.

somehow i know i couldn't focus.

i was just bothered by a few things.

at least i had a destresser to look forward to...

met a few cedar ppl for dinch...

not much time together tho..about 3 plus hours..

but it was great while it lasted.

we should do it more!

but too bad ranj has to leave soon... ):

after trying to work the self-timer and trying to take the perfect shot.... we got down to this..and yet we all still look kind of spas. HAH. joyce.ranj.xuan.me (:

no money no longan honey

my new love: toasted bread with wildflower/longan honey... mmmm...

okay this is bad.i'm getting hungry alr..and it's like 1.17am.

i am such a pig!

been a pretty interesting week.

school and all.. is like as per nomal..just that i've got thurs and fri off..sweet right?

haha.

well..wed i went to like the beach for dinner...

and thurs went out with a super close friend..

like i've know her since kindergarten...and she's just awesome la...

had a nice late lunch..and we caught a movie.. : 27 dresses.

it's actually a typical chick flick..which is so not my type..but i enjoyed the movie (excluding the mushy bits)....somehow..at least it shows that some people actually do take marriage seriously..unlike the vast majority...dunno la...i liked the part where the 2 sisters patch up..it's so super nice..

i mean so often..we have our own conclusions of people already edged into our minds..but little do we know that we've actually got it all wrong....that people are really not what they appear to be..and there's so much more we've yet to discover of them..so ya..take time to really get to know anyone before passing your judgements..it's worth the effort. (:

and another thing. i mean..generally....(if you don't think it's true then forget it)..

you aren't close to someone just cos you do alot of things together.

and you can't say u're close to someone cos u talk alot and share lots of stuff with them.

i seriously think it just goes beyond talking and hanging out together.

it's true..that's the way u build up the friendship..but it doesn't hold the friendship together.

perhaps i'm really in no position to comment on such things... but ohwells..

it irks me when people misuse the terms best friend..close friend..friend..aquaintance.

do realise they're different. categorise people appropriately and maybe we wouldn't get hurt as often as when we don't.

and also... personally, i don't think just cos u're someone's best friend..u can totally run the person's life for them...they need space too..seriously..

but anyhow..these are just what i feel...don't get me wrong.. (:

tmr will be one free day...

all e best to the competition ppl!

no pressure.
seriously.

then there's cell.

and there's sunday!

(:

nice.

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"i paid 3 grands for that dress....i have the right to wear it anywhere i want."

one thing i desire

had an excellent week!

can't exactly explain la.

fri had sch.

had silly councelling session...like i'm some sch rebel or smthing..LOL

then crashed guitar session...haha.

afterwhich rushed down to singpost for dinner.

IGNITE 08.

supercrowded.

and the lift is super scary.

haha..well..i have a phobia of lifts.

especially the glass kind..where u can see everything.

dunno how i survive in s'pore la..where everything is high-rised..

haha.

well ya...plus the lift was so packed and it was so high...i stood there huggin my bag and myself.

i was so terrified...i think it was like spelt out all over my face cos of ppl's reactions..HAHA..

what a joke.

it wasn't so bad when i came down...cos it was dark. haha. and couldn't really see anything.

but anyways...

sat had service at church.

and had sleepover that night..

cabbed down for 1st service...we were early! (:

then went singpost for lunch and transformed into aunty-fied singaporeans.

started queueing so super early..and all the rushing...it's just not me....eeks.

and like we left just before the whole session ended so we din get caught in the human jam later...

kiasu la!

i seriously felt so singaporean. HAHA.

but apart from all that nonsense...

i was convicted of a few things throughout the weekend.

and i seriously don't wish to continue in that state any longer..

i was thinking bout secondary sch days in cedar and all...

i mean....it was quite a discouraging time back then..cos like being the only gener and all..

i worked with tabjoy ppl..and a few heartofGod ppl also...we saw fruits of our labour...

but cos most of the student population resided in the northeast and central area...their churches were the ones getting the people....and i was like...wad?!..LOL. that was then la.

i know for sure i didn't waste my time there...but of course i could have done more too..

so like all those rj and acj ppl at ignite...some were from my batch in cedar..haha..yea

now in emjay...i don't think i wna do things the same way...cos God has other plans! haha they sound exciting...hehe i''m so gna pull gloriebee into this..she better join in man!

there was smthing different bout the meeting...i learnt.

well..heres to end off...

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Help me Lord this is what I ask

that you will help me with my task

Help me Lord to show the world exactly where I stand,

and that I am going follow your every command.

Help me Lord to show the world in everything I do,

I'm living my life for only you.

Help me Lord to show the world love.

The very love I received from above.

Help me Lord to show the world that you have come to save,

and that your blood you freely gave.

Help me Lord to show the world that the broken heart you can mend,

and that you're the meaning of a true friend.

Help me Lord to show the world that you love us,

no matter how much we complain or fuss.

Help me Lord to show the world that you're here in this very place,

and that they can see you when they look in my face.

Help me Lord to show the world that you're my only desire,

and you alone I'll forever admire.

Help me Lord to tell the world that no matter what they do,

your love and mercy is always there to pull us through.

Help me Lord to tell the world that you hung on a tree,

just so we all could someday be set free.

Help me Lord to tell the world that you went through so much pain,

just so our love you may someday gain.

Help me Lord to tell the world that you care,

and that no matter what you'll always be there.

Help me Lord to tell the world about the promise land,

and that you're always willing to lend a helping hand.

Help me Lord to tell the world to daily pick up their cross,

and to be a light shinning for the lost.

Help me Lord to tell the world that you're our only hope,

and just maybe that'll help some kid turn away from dope.

Help me Lord to tell the world that when we're in trouble,

you and your angels are there on the double.

Help me Lord this is what I ask,

that you will help with my task.

Leanne Simpson

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woah oh oh o.

freaky monkey

I am √-1 (square root of negative 1).
I bet u never knew that.


Ever tried to exercise patience and felt like a total fool??
Or tried to stay awake during monotonous eecawns lectures without hitting ur head at the back of the chair?
Perhaps u’ve tried doing binomial theorem with sticky candy-melted fingers, using a pen that looks pretty but has mood swings?
Or maybe tried to write a detailed reflection speech about an activity u conducted like 7 months ago..assuming u didn’t have a good memory?
Have u ever had the privilege of dealing with people who love u so much that they unknowingly paralyse u with love-torture?

My wonderful day in short.


School’s awesome.
Puts u in weird spots.
Teaches u to shove those in ur way.
Helps u achieve much dissatisfaction.

Apart from the fuss…

SHE’S BACK SHE’S BACK
SHE’S BACK SHE’S BACK
SHE’S BACK SHE’S BACK!!!!
I finally get to see her after SO long!!
Plus s*tar’s party’s cmg up!!!
And so is IGNITED. (:

The book riten by the retarded people is reeli fun to reed becaws their English is unik and yet veri expresif. I still have a hundred pajes befor I finish the whole book..it’s trajic how the story ends with the retarded man becoming smart..but then dies dew to faylure and complicasions in siense and tecnolojy. This shows that you cannot trust man and his ways but trust God in everything!

I am.

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i think i must really really miss home-cooked food.
i don't believe i forgo-ed lunching out with wonderful ppl ytd...for grandma's fried rice.
LOL.
haha. it's amazing how i reached home at 1150am from sch ytd.hahah.yeah.
so i stayed and rested till night mtg last night.
and honestly..i was totally lost. i had no idea what she was talking about. or at least what was going on. it just felt weird. like kind of out of place.
maybe it's cos i didn't like pray and prepare myself before coming...and like it was tougher to get into the flow...or maybe it's cos i was tired...
so i decided to just forget about not understanding whatever she was talking about and just get in with God...
and like i have no idea how long i did that but like along the way i found myself staring into a pair of eyes. and at that moment i had no doubt who's they were. it's like..u just know for sure.
they just make ur heart melt...and that assurance and security returns. okay this is just hard to express. lol.

was chatting with a friend in sch..and she was telling me how old people know when they're about to die.and how her grandma waited till her family was in a stable condition and then passed on. and that totally freaked me out.
someone please explain all of that to me..the whys and hows..i'm new at this..

arggh. i'm feeling kind of sick at this moment. it's the system-shutting-down feeling. lol.
probably due to the lack of sleep within the week.
i'ts crazy how i just want to be in a horizontal position throughout the day. haha.
cell later at william's.
and mtg again tonight.
i don't want to be lost again.

donuts.
i said hi and asked a silly qn.

inkless pens
my pencilcase is so totally full of them.
i only have currently one working pen
cos i lost all the new nice ones while lending them to ppl
haha.
and it's like sometimes u want to say or write some things..but when you actually get down to doing it..it's like your muse has deserted you.
i must certainly not keep this up. it's not working.
**
serious champagne chocolate craving now.
**
anyways...one thing i've learnt (and help others to learn too) from school this week:
the truth will set u free!
i mean so many times we hear it in church and it gets set in our hearts.
apart from like bible truth and all...i think often times people (or maybe it's just in my circle of friends or smthing)...find it so choking to say exactly what's on their mind.
and i know for sure i managed to overcome that recently...
we try expressing things but there's still some hidden content.
perhaps it's fear of being confronted or rejected or somewhere along that line...
(okay this is getting weird cos i don't usually blog these stuff)
anyhow...i managed to prove some people totally wrong this week.
it was hard to say it all in one go..but as i progressed...and definitely asked the Holy Spirit to help me say it all out using the right words....the meeting/conversation ended pretty smoothly and i certainly felt better...and well..yes...disbelief was pretty much written all over their faces. that was of course a much expected response to whatever i said.
well truly enough...it was all well received and no one got upset or anything..and they too realised that if they had said things like this much earlier before..more things would've been done differently and none of us would've needed to suffer in silence for such a long time!
and silly me thought all along i was the only one who was feeling that way..hahah.
now we know.
dun be a moron and take up space on earth and suffer in our own little miserable corner when nothing explosive will take place if you'd just open your mouth. but of course..add grace to your words as well. (:
**
off to satisfy the champange chocolate craving....
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i love the weekend-feeling. haha.
(:
(:
whoopdeloop.

1dollar..2dollars...and more.

i'm glad to say that i'm enjoying sch.
5breaks in a day is great.
but i catch myself stoning too often. HAHA
haven't really got attached to class yet...actually i'm confused on who's even my classmate.
it was after attending the most unlikely series of lectures that i seriously got a clearer picture of where my interests lie...and what kind of a person i am.
i realised i was never wrong about how i perceived myself..but possibly went wrong in the way i tried to express who i really was/am.
so now that i know...got to either shutup or sieve out alot of things..cos i realise that alot of times ppl just dun care bout the stuff u say..no matter how serious,true or wacky it is.
irritating proposals still bug me after a 2mth break...but ohwells..managed to give someone a piece of my mind. hopefully things work out better after this.
and veepees are irritating people. RAAHSS.
not looking forward to rigorous mugging...but i guess i dun have a choice really..
just be who i am...do things with excellence..and impact people? lol.
peacock feathers.
peacock feathers.
peacock feathers.
drats.
dun like.
dun like.
dun like.
it's like i see ehhhs.. drives me nuts.
if only it'll close down.
or at least kick me out so i can join smthing more productive.
my energy is being thoroughly wasted on stuff i'm so not passionate about.
but whatever.
try and make a difference wherever i am.
but it's hard.
God be with me. seriously.

OD1..no D2 no D3. oleh!
that kind of explains my hyper mood right now.
so like sch officially began yesterday.
and like that was the start of orientation.
and i was like...no..not another one..2's enough alr.
but i still went anyways.

was pretty alright.
i mean..the hype was there.
seriously...i have never seen emjay ppl so enthu and crazy before.
met my class.
had fun with them.
the atmosphere was so super different. and that's a good thing btw.
i finally understood the convenience of having short straight hair.
(: ooh ah..feels good. LOL
but it kind of got wet yesterday cos i walked under this thingy that didn't hold water properly..and this water droplet landed on my head and i started freaking out...haha..but even though my hair kind of got bent..it didn't look too bad..
and no. i do not have an obsession with my hair. pbhht. Xp

so now i'm like enjoying every moment spent at home..while everyone else is at sch.
yay. long weekend. return on monday! (:

okay this is a must-say kind of thing:
was at mandy's house for new year...and she opened some present or something..

sherni: hey that looks nice...
mandy: yea i like it cos the colours very vibrating.