i found out the reason why i'm so stagnant in church.
simple. my attendance in cell is so super irregular.
parents dun let me go for cell. go bind and stuff.
yet they expect me to rise up fast and go do other stuff.
i mean come on la. how can that happen unless i attend mtgs and go for cell and stuff.
i think it's rubbish la.
maybe what he said was true. ppl who're kept in the cage..once it's time to be free..they go wild.
although i dun want that to be my case, but i never know.
i'm this stupid chicken who's been kept in the cage my whole life. allowed to come out for wad..only few times a year. even that release is restricted. i might as well be 'paralysed' so that even if i wanted the release, there was no way to get it. and at least there's a proper reason for me not geting wad i want. why does everyone see it except them! and wad just becos i go out with him for lunch..i dunt consider that a date. rubbish larhx.
AAAAAAAAARRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
UGH.
can i just become a kid again..or become some old person. so that i dun need to worry bout these things and get tangled in such situations. but why????????