ha, i'm so free i can blog everyday. though pointless i know.
i totally ruined the rest of my hols.
no more going out. in other words grounded.
irritating man..
so annoying eh. it's hols! and i can't even go for zone outing.
it's nonsense larhz.
and the reason? - too far. wad crap la.
should've just stayed at home being bored.
should've just said no.
should've just.... ah wells. no point regretting now.
i don't believe in lying. i don't like liars so i can't possibly be one myself.
i guess sometimes i've got to learn it the hard way.

i've been thinking.
why is it that when you've known someone for more than 10 yrs for example, you feel as if they don't know you. even if they may be your best friend or just super close, conversations feel superficial and so on. and when u talk to them it's as if you've known them for a week.
and then someone comes along in the ten years. u know them for let's say a few months, and it's like the person knows you inside out. to the point you wonder if this person has been has been spying on you enough to know even wad you've been thinking about.
i mean it's a comfoting fact to know you've got someone who thoroughly understands you. but then you question what happened in that super long friendship with the other person. it somehow just drifted along the way. and perhaps even brought back to start position. i mean. it's so sad. it's like someone just snatches that righful position away. why can't everything just be normal, the way it regularly does? why does it have to remain superficial? i miss you alot y'know. and to hear you're returning is great. but then like it always ends up as-we meet and we've got nothing to talk about- i don't want it to be like that this time round though. for all my efforts in maintaining the friendship not only between us but the rest of the clique, it's not rewarding enough to see your face and say 'hi.' pls?