it's times like these when i seriously want to crawl into a hole and be forgotten about and well..forget everything else too.

only when i think i am doing fine...is it when i'm coping the worst. and right now..*ahem*..yah. i hardly feel stressed at all..but when i do..it's bad alright. theoretically, i have so much time and so little commitments compared to others.. logically, i dunno what's going on..wait..i dunt think that sounded right..ah..who cares..i dun even understand myself. shoots. this totally bites. thinking back now..i seriously dunno why i got mysel into this violin business thing..grade 5 this yr..no big deal..i'd say the same thing..it's just that the sttoopiiid exam falls in aug!! the major month of prelim prep..and i've eng oral on the week i'd 99% have the violin prac..so shoots la..if i miss one or the other i'd just flip..one is super expensive..while the other cannot be retaken..so yah..aaaahhh...and i'm barely prepared for the exam la..4+weeks and i've not even memorised scales..i'm so totally dead..and i've my teacher hounding me for all the many many lessons i've missed and yah..he thinks i'm such a slacker..plus theory..my good ness..can go crazee doing like 2 wks worth of pages...oh no! how to finish by tmr..???? and my theory exam falls together with Os!! how can!! so cramp..sure clash wan..there must be away out..!! this week din even have time!!! slept at 12.30 last night writing lit..and i was so dead tired this morning..i can't make it without sleep..so the on;y possible solution i can think of is for the hours in the day to be lengthened..of which the probability is ZERO..there's not going to be a 30h-day or anything and yah...ahh..dunno how..shoots.