there was a word stuck in my head this past week.
sensitivity.
not just physically or emotionally towards others... but towards circumstances.
like how i'm always so hard up. i mean i can't help it. sometimes for certain things i seriously feel numb about them. that's probably why i can listen to people without actually feeling affected by their problems and like sort of advise them.. but at other times it's really a hinderance.
like if i'm in a terrible situation..and have no feeling whatsoever...i would in fact..not be bothered at all. i mean i'm not the kind who who fret over something that went wrong..if it just happens then too bad la..that's probably what i'd say. unless i'm pretty sure the fault lies with the other party. that's a different story altogether.
anw..this sensitivity thing. been thinking bout it. that i should be more sensitive to wad God's trying to tell me.. either directly..from people..or to people. that i won't see things as they are..on the surface..but deeper.
if i do ask anyone...i'd be sure they won't say i'm a sensitive person. but there's the weird part. i'm not like that on the inside. but on the outside... lol. it's really funny. i get bruised super easily.and it gets irritating. if a speck of dust lands on my skin i can feel it.i dunno how. and the list carries on. so i guess like how i'm like that outside.. i better change my heart..or at least ask Daddy to change me. (:
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the weirdest things happen in sch. and i dun think people would believe it's me..if they saw me in sch. LOL. even i think i'm different. maybe cos it's a small class. i dunno. but yah. i mean..it's good that i'm not like old times. it's more fun now.
and man...lit skit texts are messed up.sick la.felt so weird. and of all ppl mark tan had to choose anthony... drunkard vs captain = cannot make it!! haha. tt's about how lit went.
and econs mr ang i think only can remember my name and joel's.keep calling me lar...and always ans wrong. my econs needs help. ):
yays! sat tmr. then sun! then anytime next week get results!so fun. but so scary. but no. i did my best. can't be that bad wad. rite? i hope.(: haha
and oh! gp test. so hard la. then today give back..chacko was flashing the closest to A grade kind...and then say want to show us the D grade one as well.and i saw him pick out the script that looked like mine. i was like oh shoots. die la. 1st test then so bad! then he flashed it. and said i had good literary skills. meaning my handwriting super nice! haha!! i was like wah! cool. so i tot he was gna say i got D. then rmb he took the wrong script. so in e end wasn't mine! yays! (: lame la. but u know...