seriously. i think i'm going mad.

if i don't have daily natural, on-the-earth outlets...i'm gna burst.

gelato indulgence.

works while it lasts.

_______________ needs to get away from my face.

or ____________ will be in big trouble.

excuse me while i think irrationally for awhile.

why can't i just get expelled. then i'd be free from all this stupid crap which i totally have no idea why i'm stuck with.

ok so everything won't be solved by doing that. and escaping is not an option. but i don't care for now. time to end the irrational thinking for now.

done.

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just cos i din go for one event does not make me ___

not happy then tell me straight can?

dun ignore/talk indirectly/black face/anything else u can think of.

and i thought ___ was a better place of release.

i was wrong.

humans fail.

cos we aren't machines.

but then again machines fail too.

so what then am i actually saying?

raahs.

feeling fractious all over again. cyclic?