i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try and i try...but i suck at it.

u know sometimes i really don't understand why people have this mindset that i don't put in effort. like hello? do i need to go publicize my studying habits? my schedule?? i think it's rather shallow the way some humans make conclusions.
and so, i don't need to cry in front of people..or go tell the world what i do behind my room door just to tell them what's going on right? i'm sorry but that's not how it works with me.
i'm pretty much the biggest loser..with 4 fat Us...but i know i did my best..and if my best just isn't good enough..then...so be it.

Good for you if you've never ever seen me explode at someone (seriously. u don't want to know.)...good for you if you've never seen the major emo side of me(cos it really isn't nice).
so far i think you've only known the majorly tired or smiley me...

i was fine with all the ____ hoo hah thing. i knew where i stood. what i had to do. what was to come. yet some things have to happen just to burst my little bubble. so what do i do when everyone's all ____ and i seriously dunno how to react. and it'll look pretty weird..as if i don't care or something. but that's not it. i do care. but haiya...... it just feels like crap.

i still don't understand how i could break it with a smile on with all the cracks inside.
u have no idea how major a role words play.

i pray my rainbow shows through soon.
(:



[i'm bad at psychoing myself]